Queen Of The Procrastinators...

I have so much to write but haven't had any time to do so....so here I sit, again, trying to pack to leave tomorrow on another two-week journey and instead of doing the eight million things on my list, I decide that now is the perfect moment to blog. I procrastinate purely to perfect the art of procrastination. So, yes, I am the Queen.

The quick and dirty of the last few weeks: went to Canada, visited with family, celebrated birthdays (Taeya's first, my grandma's 92nd! very cool...), came home to paint fumes and color extravaganza on the wall which we love!, couldn't handle the fumes so checked into local chi-chi (is that how you spell that?) hotel which happened to coincide with anniversary so was moderately romantic (what with the jet lag and the one year old wedged in between us), came home in time to frantically hang pictures and clean up so we could host a baby naming/1st birthday party for my daughter, managed to get it all done in time and it was really beautiful and perfect and worth all the stress, and now Taeya and I have managed to come down with a minor cold, my step-dad is sick...really sick, found another type of cancer in his liver and is now in the hospital with an infection sick....can't wrap my head around it sick, and here I sit packing. I'll be taking the laptop to Hawaii and have finally figured out how to upload photos so stay tuned, there will be endless pictures of Taeya with a lei....

Happy Birthday Lee!

Very cool birthday trip!

Malamute Motel

I'm so glad you're all having a great time and we can't wait to see you for New Year's :-)

Busier Than A One-Legged Man In A Butt-Kickin' Contest

...well, that's what I told my sister anyway. She wanted to make sure I was still alive as I hadn't shown up here in awhile. Seriously, my head is spinning around furiously and steam is, in fact, coming out of my ears. And, the odd thing is, I'm not even completely sure why I'm so busy. I know it has something to do with the fact that I have two auditions in a week (after not working for, oh, a year and a half - the creaking you hear is the rust in my acting ability), we're about to go to Canada for two weeks and we're having our entire house painted while we're away which has proven to be the catalyst for some desperately needed spring (fall) cleaning, and, of course, four days after we return we're having a small party for fifty or so of our dearest friends. Although I think this frantic pace has more to do with the fact that Taeya is not sleeping and subsequently either am I so I'm living on some weird 24-hour schedule in which I'm lucky to get four hours of sleep and the rest of the time I'm hopped up on one (or two) pots of coffee and an inordinate amount of chocolate. I am the picture of perfect health and sanity.

The acting thing is proving to be surprising. I figured things had probably changed, what with having a baby and all the subsequent evolving that has occurred. I didn't know if I would have anything to offer or even be remotely interested. I've discovered that I do and I am. I actually think I'm more flexible and interesting now as an actor than I was before. Also, I know my heart expanded eight million fold when Taeya was born and that seems to have seeped into my work. I think one of the reasons that I'm probably more interesting is because, underneath all of this work, I am torn emotionally and physically by the idea of acting while trying to be a full-time mom....can I call this creative tension?? How do I make these two things work together? I have no answers. At the moment I've decided to be a spectator in my life and I'm curious to see how it's all going to unfold.

The reality, tonight, is that I should be doing everything and anything but writing this. My to-do list is way too long. But I needed to breathe so here I am taking deep breaths and hoping that the packing fairy will arrive around midnight. I'd better get to sleep before she gets here or she might decide that she's not needed.